Thursday, January 1, 2009

A New Year, A New Slate

I had a moment of inspiration today and a burst of positive energy...and then it went away. Somehow, I managed to bring it back, although it was sort of a whisper this time. I realized that I'm a good talker, so many ideas, so many things to say that sound right, sound good and I realized something else...I'm not so much a doer, as I am the talker. I also realized that I have choices to make and for once in my life I need to stop complaining. 2 big deals to realize: Choices and Action, I finally need to make the choices to realize my actions and make them what I need to make them in order to make myself whole again. Does that make sense? I thought about New Year's Resolutions and said to myself that I wouldn't do that to myself...because I never fall through with them. I also realized that I have to stop complaining and just make a choice...and finally STICK to it! Action!! I need to make a change...I need to take ACTION! When it all boils down to things, I am the only one that can truly fulfill my quest, to finally realize my passions, my dreams and just take care of me.

This is the start of my new make things better...make things come alive, not only in my mind but in my soul. I need to take charge, take responsibility of my own life and make it all it could be. Why has it taken me so long to realize this? Maybe its the age....maybe I've finally had an epiphany...maybe I've finally opened my its tough to be in life's coma sometimes...tough to feel like you haven't lived.

Believe it or not, you make choices everyday...whether its picking the right outfit for work, or staying in a relationship you've made that choice. Don't ever think you don't have that option...your free leads you to roads you may not like, but you can always take a different turn, you can always start over. I was thinking of how people can be enslaved for so many years and on the day of freedom...some don't want it...because it is unfamiliar...because being enslaved is all you've ever known...what will you do now?? But for some, that freedom is your doorway to all that is possible, to all that can change your life, to living as you off the chains and have faith that when you jump off that cliff, something will be there to save you.

What is my new slate? My new slate is my improved me...I'll seek my purpose, I'll laugh a little more, I will lose this extra person I have and love myself a little bit better, I'll write my fantasies, I'll bathe in moment, because everyday that I open my eyes, it is a new gift given to me to be able to spread my wings a little further. I'll cherish my dreams, follow my heart and give something back to the world...Remembering why people are put in our paths and use that information to better our lives. Some people leave this world but mark us for life...we have to honor that memory, cherish that purpose and be grateful for the souls we take care of now.

I seek knowledge everyday...I yearn for purpose...I fear no evil...I cherish my family...............

I am thankful for a new day, a new challenge, grateful that I am alive, lucky to have a new slate.

Have a Happy New Year...and may your dreams find you!